So times you just need to let it all out. You need to stand exposed, naked, for the world to see. And, to me, that is the point of a blog. A place were you can let it all out. So…..
On Friday a new company in Norcal drew 500 or so people. Today my company, my home, my life, drew the worst crowd we have ever drawn. And this pisses me off. Not because somebody else drew 500 because really I wish every company could draw like that, but because my crew works so hard and the wrestlers are way too fucking good to work in front of crowds that small.
Biff, Tiff, Kitty, Skott, Joe, Wilbur, Jamie….. they make it worth walking the aisle even if nobody else is in the building. 500 people…. 5 people. I love to wrestle and I want to wrestle. I live to wrestle. However I cannot possible keep my company alive if we do not turn things around attendance wise.
Tonight a former Olympian wrestled a former ECW tag team champion. Rock Legend Scum wrestled Drake freaking Younger. THOSE MATCHES need to be seen.
In the opening promo my ear got split open and I bled well. And my ankle was killing me, meaning that my main event was even more challenging then normal. Last month Bobby and I had the matches of our lives and as much as we love facing each other neither of us really wanted to try to top it this month. Neither of us could figure out how to even attempt such a thing. And I only had one leg. The crowd was tiny. I didn’t even bother to PUT MY FUCKING GEAR ON (and that will haunt me for years to come).
So here I sit, in pain, pissed off at myself for not knowing how to fix this. How to turn things around. This roster….the wrestlers of Norcal deserve better.
And yes, I know my detractors are laughing at me because of tonight’s show. Fine. There are people that want me to fine. Fine. But here is the thing…. I need to succeed. Not for my ego. Not for me at all. For Biff, Tiff, Kitty, Wilbur, Skott, Jamie, and every fucking wrestler out there that has any desire to walk the aisle in SPW. I owe it to all of them.
One more thing…. and this is true of every company out there… if you are a wrestler and are booked to be on a show it is your JOB to draw. That is why bookers higher you. IF you make no effort to draw then why should you get booked. It is on ALL Of us to help every where we work get better and stronger. Some people seem of have forgotten this. Or never learned it.
Ok, I admit that last paragraph may have been a bit out of place…but I am rambling at this point and really only two or three people are still with me.
Tonight sucked. I am hurting mentally and physically….but sitting at Denny’s when all the works was done, with my brothers and sisters…. yeah… life is good because even on an awful day I can have a good night.
And here is the thing…. there are good things on the horizon if we just keep fighting. I can’t talk about stuff yet but we have the potential to really do something….. we just need to be ready and able to rock and roll when the time comes.
So….if you have any ideas on how I can get attendance up please feel free to let me know. Contact me on here. Email me (firstname.lastname@example.org). Text me (916 947 1767). Show up on my freaking doorstep (410 Bell Ave #11 in Sacramento). LET ME KNOW.
I am going to go watch Men in Tights now. Uh… I meant Robin Hood Men in Tights. Not more wrestling